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06 February 2009 @ 04:39 pm
Don't know how to be sweet girls
Mama didn't teach me
Little boys don't know how to treat little girls
Daddy didn't show me

Going to see He's Just Not That Into You in a little bit. →ܫ←  I'm very excited.  I was on the website for the movie and watched the Top 10 Cliches Not in He's Just Not That Into You and died laughing!  If you haven't watched that bit, you really need to! :3

I'm just going with my bestie, Becca.  It's at 6:45, so hopefully I'll get dinner in!  Usually we meet up at the theatre an hour beforehand, but Claire's closed down at the outlet mall, so we probably won't. D:

But oh well!  I'm sure well have much fun. εїз < Look!  A boo-ti-fly. ;D

So, that friend with her first boyfriend I talked about last entry...well he broke up with her.  I was pissed, because I had a bet they'd break up tomorrow!  (≧0≦)  It sucked, because he told everyone he would before he did.  And I'm all, "We're in high school, dude, grow a freakin' backbone!"  

Also!  I had a debate with a friend about this earlier, but does XC kinda look like a frog?  X for the eyes and C is that weird mouth thing they got goin on? O:

In Chemistry (first period) today I got a pass to go to the office during heatlh.  The entire time I'm thinking, "Ohshit, what'd I do this time?" ⊙▽⊙  But it turns out I got student of the month in the art department. :D  I think it was just a sympathy vote, but who knows!  (∩_∩)

I gotta go eat mac n cheese before hitting the movie!  It's not the cool one with the caramel corn, so there's not great food.  Hopefully this super cute boy that I sit near in a class of mine is working there today. -`ω´-

 
 
Current Location: Bedroom
Current Music: Love Save the Empty
 
 
slow_illness
05 February 2009 @ 07:50 pm
And lie to me
You could say anything
Small talk will be just fine
Your voice is everything

Today was my first day back from school since the incident.  The teachers kept hugging me, and I forgot to turn in my binder for Psychology.  WHICH IS WORTH SIXTY POINTS. D;  But, in my defense, I was absent last time and possibly did not know about it (but I did, just forgot). (╥﹏╥)

Anywho.  Going to school basically sucked.  People hugging me, my friend got a boyfriend (her first! O:) and that's all she talks about.  Seriously.  People spend more time talking about talking to their boyfriends than actually talking to them!  It's, like, "What the hell is the point of this?"

I give them until Saturday.  So, two more days.  I only say this because I made a bet he'll ask for sex by then so they'll break up when she denies him.  Though, I'm not convinced completely that she will. T ^ T

Came home with a headache.  D:  I was going to drive to school, but when I turned on the car I heard someone say "NO! STOP!" ⊙△⊙ so I'm all, like, not gonna mess with the powers from beyond! 

Sitting here listening to Frou Frou.  I freakin' love heeer~ <333  Like, it's nice for when you want to relax and just think.  Which, actually, I don't want to do. -changes music- D; 

I'm going to get some bagels soon.  It's 8:00 P.M. and I'm goin to get bagels.  Wow.  I feel productive! :D  Could be writing a playwrite for composition, but it's due Monday, so why even bother?  I'm not sure what I'm going to write about, but I'll probably just post it here when I'm done anyways.  :D

Any ideas on good topics for this?  It's supposed to be something from school, but I'm not sure what.  I could do our German classroom, but I'm not sure I want to really use names of people.  It seems a bit rude.  So, any funny quotes or something you've heard while in school?  Or just out about walking the streets! :D

 
 
Current Location: Bedroom
Current Music: Unwell
 
 
slow_illness
03 February 2009 @ 06:31 pm
She sees she wants
Everything she wants
I see she gets

Just found out today that I quality for getting a check a month! ◕ ◡ ◕

I always decided that I'm putting most of the money I get from that in savings for when I go to Europe in 2010 (We're going to Rome, Paris, Barcelona, Zurich, and many other places!) and college for after I graduate.

Already decided on a college, actually.  I really want to go to Ithaca College in New York, so tuition will be quite expensive! ⊙﹏⊙ Onoez! D:  Surely I'll be able to get at least some scholarships to help pay for that, or otherwise I'm royally screwed.  But I have a few more years until I graduate, so it's not a big worry right now!

Just got done reading The Walking Dead.  It's a comic-thing.  So.  Freaking.  Amazing! <3  I mean, I kinda skimmed through a lot of the dialogue (there is a freakin' ton), but even doing that it was very clear what was going on.  Hooray for Zombies! :'D

 
 
Current Location: Bedroom
Current Mood: determineddetermined
Current Music: Tonight
 
 
slow_illness
02 February 2009 @ 04:48 pm
Tap that
You bet I'm gonna get you
You come over here and play with me
Let me be your dirty fantasy


 
Just got back from visiting my father's cemetary. The man is working on the bench dimensions.  It'll take a while because he's specially making a pair of running shoes with wings out of marble.

Obviously, my father was a runner. (≧0≦)

Not much going on besides that.  We have to get the insurance checked out.  I didn't go to school today, and don't plan on going tomorrow either.  I have no desire to deal with everyone talking about what happened, along with the serious amounts of drama that occurred just today.

Lets see.  Right now I'm thinking of playing MySims Kingdom for the Wii.  It's so adorable - the characters!  I haven't played it much (I miss the MySims version on how you just got to move people in!), but it sounds like a good idea right now.  However, it'll just keep me from colouring some pictures I want to turn into plastic charms. (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ

Here is a picture of some monkey clips I made a while ago.  Cute? ⊙ω⊙





 
 
Current Location: Bedroom
Current Mood: apatheticapathetic
Current Music: Tap That
 
 
slow_illness
01 February 2009 @ 09:09 pm
The times we spent together
All those drives
We had a million questions
All about our lives


Sadly enough, I have experienced my first death on Tuesday, January 27th, 2009.  It was my dear father.

The police arrived at our house at 7:30 A.M. and told us the news.  Thankfully, it was a closed school day - the rest of the week we had no school - and he died quickly and painlessly.  He was running on the treadmill at our 24-hour gym when it happened.  Nobody was there, but he was found quickly enough.

The viewing and memorial are over.  They happened a few days ago, for which I am glad.  It's a very painful experience which I would hope nobody would have to go through.  I had no idea I would for a while still.  

It's true that the death of a loved one brings out the best and worst of people.  My two sisters have been yelling at me constantly.  One even had the nerve to say that I wasn't grieving, for I was happy I got to ride in the front of the hearse with the funeral director and my father.

Grief; 2 a: deep and poignant distress caused by or as if by bereavement b: a cause of such suffering according to the Merriam-Webster dictionary.

I believe it should add: beware of crazed members of society who believe smiling after the death of a loved one is a truly sinful expression.

This is true.  My sister believed that me cracking jokes with other members of the family was a horrible expression of my grief.  However, I knew that my father would believe the world was at an end if I cried in front of everyone.  He and I never shared emotions towards each other, and now it certainly would not help me feel better if I started to.  If anything, it may make me feel worse for being so cold towards my daddy.

I spoke at the memorial and burial.  Afterwards, many people came up to me and said how proud my father would be.  While my family broke down at different intervals, I stood up and spoke about the time I shared with him.  It's amazing how difficult standing up and speaking can be until you have to do it in front of people at a funeral.

May everyone find comfort in themselves and accept the grieving of others.  Just because they do not cry, or do not speak, does not mean they do not feel.


 
 
Current Location: Bedroom
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: Even Angels Fall